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Dating & Chronic Illness: Will Anyone Love Me?

February is the month of love. The world likes to remind me of it every day; emails flooding my inbox of gift ideas from retailers on what to buy that special someone. My social media feeds drown in stories of love and relationships and cliched quotes about romance. But these do not invoke warm feelings or feeling included. Instead, I find myself shrouded by loneliness; dating and my life with chronic illness seem so incompatible. Seeing so many revelling in...

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depression, suicide, suicidal thoughts

Depression: The Darker Side of Chronic Illness

Trigger Warning: Descriptions of Depression, Suicide and Suicidal Thoughts I love losing myself in a story. I especially love doing so when experiencing adversity and setbacks in my health. It allows me the opportunity to escape from my life dictated by illness. Instead, I can experience excitement and adventure, albeit in my vivid imagination. With a clear beginning, middle and end, stories feel predictable and reassuringly safe with their linear narrative. Because living with a chronic illness is terrifyingly unpredictable,...

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Deterioration: A Threat That This Isn't Over

Deterioration: A Threat That This Isn’t Over

As I stare out of my window, I witness the seasons changing. I saw as the leaves fell from the trees outside. The ground suddenly became a beautiful canvas of colours with orange, red, yellow, and green hues. The days gave way to cooling temperatures and darkening afternoons that stretch long into the night. And I have watched as heavy rain has pelted against my window panes. We can reconcile such changes by switching on cosy lights, wrapping up in...

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Pain or Painkillers: A Difficult Decision To Make

Pain or Painkiller: A Difficult Decision To Make

I lie here in bed, unable to discern anything but pain. A burning, searing pain travelling up and down my back and legs. Pain that proves to be both unyielding and punishing in its intensity. Another flare, one of many I have experienced over the years of living with chronic pain. Once again, finding myself held hostage by the betrayal of my body. As I lie here, besieged by gruelling and unbearable pain, I have to decide: pain...

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Reliving Heartbreak: Life with a chronic illness

Reliving Heartbreak: Life With A Chronic Illness

"The true heartbreak of living with chronic illness is being forced to relive the worst moments of it over and over again" I am an avid reader. I love nothing more than to sit and devour the latest bestsellers. Unfortunately, at times disabling symptoms that accompany chronic illness prevents me from doing so. Blurred vision, dizziness and intense, crippling pain all make reading near impossible. But still, I am grateful for the times I able to find pleasure in the pages...

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